I wish i wasnt gay
Do you sometimes wish you weren't gay?
GreySun369 wrote:
It's not really that I'm ashamed of existence gay, it's that I think it would so much easier to own a natural family of my control if I were straight. Is that understandable?
I certainly comprehend it--but I consider you are looking with a attractive heavy set of filters.
Conception might be easier in a heterosexual relationship--but most heterosexual relationships do not launch with an judgment of fertility. There are countless heterosexual couples seeking fertility treatment because of difficulties with conception. Opposite sex marriage is no guarantee of conception.
It seems to me, too, that you seem to possess a bias in favour of so-called "natural" children. (As if adopted children were somehow unnatural...) I think you are foreclosing yourself from an essential option--not just adoption, but also adoption of older children. If you truly want to "make
by Fred Penzel, PhD
This article was initially published in the Winter 2007 edition of the OCD Newsletter.
OCD, as we know, is largely about experiencing severe and unrelenting doubt. It can bring about you to doubt even the most basic things about yourself – even your sexual orientation. A 1998 study published in the Journal of Sex Analyze found that among a community of 171 college students, 84% reported the occurrence of sexual intrusive thoughts (Byers, et al. 1998). In order to include doubts about one’s sexual persona, a sufferer need not ever have had a homo- or heterosexual experience, or any type of sexual experience at all. I have observed this symptom in young children, adolescents, and adults as well. Interestingly Swedo, et al., 1989, found that approximately 4% of children with OCD experience obsessions concerned with forbidden aggressive or perverse sexual thoughts.
Although doubts about one’s own sexual identity might seem pretty straightforward as a symptom, there are actually a number of variations. The most obvious form is where a sufferer experiences the thought that they might be of a different sexual orientation than they formerly believed. If the su
Why I wish I wasn’t Gay
Valentine’s day is the day when couples honor their love for each other. Every Valentine’s date, I have hoped would be better than the one before. But things didn’t really catch up that well. At this juncture, I was thinking how different my existence would have been if I was not Gay.
Emotional stability
Most couples give each other an emotional stability. They give a gentle of happiness and encourage. There is always this feeling that whatever happens, you and I will be together. Having dated guys for over 5 years, not one guy had made me undergo that way. I terminate up feeling miserable at dates because they only look at me as a piece of meat for them to appetite. My heart goes for a toss. The touch, the hugs, the eyes, they all are filled with lust. They quench the thirst of the body, but my heart is dry. There has been hardly any initiative or any kind of reciprocation, as all men feel entitled somehow, and expect emotional advances but never give back. Everyday I deal with shame, guilt, fear and sorrow. It takes up a major part of my life and makes me think that I am living a lie. I wish I never came to explore my sexuality. I wish I just li
In honour of National Coming Out Sunlight, we’re diving immersive into a sentiment many gay men have struggled with at some point: "I wish I wasn’t gay." While this feeling may seem contradictory on a day meant to celebrate coming out, it’s a reality for many who grapple with their sexual orientation and the journey to self-acceptance.
In this episode, we unpack the challenges of embracing your original self, including:
- How we came to receive our sexuality
- Would we change our sexuality if we could?
- Words of encouragement for those who desire they were something different than they are
Whether you’re on your own journey of self-discovery or supporting someone who is, this episode is filled with heart, vulnerability, and hope. Please complete share this episode with someone who needs to perceive it to foster more understanding, kindness, and support on this National Coming Out Day.
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- Michael DiIorio
- Matt Landsiedel
- Reno Johnston
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